The actual fact is, no one can be influenced. We're influenced cos' we want to, even without ourselves knowing.♛
I know that you'll never know how much i really love you. I'm actually still thinking whether to give up on you or not. I'm tired of all these things already. I'm keeping quiet cos' i don't want you to keep worrying about me. I know i'm not the one for you, but you've to understand that you're the one for me. The journey that i've went through was very tough. I cannot seem to forget you. I always want to walk home with you, i want to talk to you, i want to smile at you, i want to laugh with you, i want to see you everyday... No matter how much i want to forget you, i can't... I guess, i'm too deeply in love and even if i've let go of you, i'll keep chasing you back again. Though i'm tired, i was always wanting to chase you all the time no matter how exhausted i am. I know i suck in expressing myself in words. But i just want you to understand the situation i'm in....
I've been crying, and i missed school for 1 day. It was a rather shiok event, but after that had to go for band for the ndp rehearsals. Was very torturing; under the sun for so long and we had so many breaks throughout the rehearsal. i was really dizzy cos' i can't go under the sun for too long. K, but in the end, we still got under the shade. :) Haha. My flute playing sucks, really. :( Haha. But overall, the parade was indeed enjoyable. :)
We're all different, just that we want to copy cos' they look more glamourous and outstanding in life.
In fact, i've never gave up on you. There's always that particular place in my heart that you'll always be inside wherever you are. I guess what my bestfriend said was right, ''Maybe he's another half of you.'' Was deeply pained yesterday, and talked to bestfriend about it. Was really kinda moody and had not much mood to text. :/ Sigh, it seems like loving him more than anyone else is the toughest.
Ok, now going to just thank a few people. : Weiyang, Angelina, Adilah, Junpeng, Celine, Syahindah, Suzana, Angie, Kirstin, Jiayi. Promise you guys, without them i really can't survive. They make me smile even if i didn't want to, and they are always there for me. Ok. Wont fill you all up so much of whats happening. Cos' i've no fucking mood to express myself here. Sorry yeah. :( K. Shall end here. Bye.
About Me
- cwh's.
I'm the type of girl you'll see wishing the same wish everytime I see a shooting star. I do things that I myself think it's right when others think it's wrong. I do what I think is best for myself and others, and pick friends carefully. I've a very difficult mind to break into, and that only the closest friend would understand who I really am. You may think you know me well, but actually you don't. Because I myself don't know myself well, and I believe only God knows who I really am more than anyone else knows. And if you're not aware, I'm a Leehongki && Ft Island fanatic. ♥