''A hug is just a hug till you find the one you're always thinking of." ▲
I think of him everyday, I cry when I miss him, I get emotional when I don't see him. Yesterday, I was really really emotional. And he kept comfortating me over and over again without fail, until he saw a "HAHA." in one of my messages to him. He told me to confide my problems to him cos' he wants to be my listening ear. Did you know how moved I was? Did you know how much I was moved to tears when he told me that? Did you know how much those words meant to me? I'm starting to get influenced by him. I'm always hungry at 10pm. And that's the time he eats his dinner. I've totally no idea why. HAHA, there're still many more things that we've in common, I just don't want to list them out. Hey baby, rest well okay. #crossfingers that tomorrow will be a good day.
So hey. I'm missing him like hell now, and I'm always daydreaming, though I know I've like a ton of homework waiting for me to vandalise them. I'm such a #daydreamer, cos' I simply miss him every day, hour, minute and second. I know I'm such an idiot. I simply love him so much, and I have no choice but to let him stick in my head. I'm so sorry, baby. I guess being in love is tough. I don't bear to let go of you, even though I know I can't hang onto you any longer. I've been kinda moody nowadays at home. Keep thinking about so many negative things. I know you guys have been texting me to ask if I'm okay. "Yes, I am okay. Thank you for your concern. I just need to chill that's all. And I'll promise you all that I'm not gonna make you all worry about me again."
Had an advanced birthday 'party' for Mswang. She was very happy, I could tell. :B I was so damn scared of the poppers alright! And somemore, so many people popping. Likea seriously, I'm so scared of them now. Lol. Had usual Wednesday classes, and then after school, I didn't go for band. Awesome much. \m/ Sent dearest Angie home, and then headed home. I'm really tired now. :( How I wish this hell will not go on any further. This made me immune to pain already. I always place that stupid smile on my face just to make people think that I'm alright when I'm not. Okay, I guess I should really stop being emotional. It just makes other people hurt.
Let me change my mood, to a happygirl97. Hey, I've tried my best to stay n task and stay focused on studies. I realised how much I've missed out by just daydreaming. Okay, I'm gonna change my routine. Will no longer just eat and sleep. Will definetely put all my time into studying. K, hardworkinggirl97's gonna study now.
" ''If you want other people to appreciate who you are, appreciate who they are first. If you tell people not to judge you, then dont judge them." ▲
I've really a lot of things to rant about. Cos' first of all, I feel totally neglected. Only I talk to them then i'll be able to talk to them. K, seriously wth is this. If you just want me to accompany you just because you want company, then i'm sorry girl. You've chose the wrong person. Being stuck with my friends not enough, stealing them from me somemore. Can you seriously think? She's like my goodfriend and i always go with her cos' she wants me to. Its been 5 months since we grew this close. And yet you? Oh god, likea seriously. You only 'got close' to her like for a few days. You're just wanting to steal my friends and to not feel lonely? Girl, would you like it if i did the same? I don't think you will. So please, ofgs, just leave her alone. Get your own friends, cos' you're only an extra, thats it. -.-
Secondly, i totally dislike people who just keeps breaking their promises. So what? Empty promises? I really don't know how to trust you anymore. And somemore, i've known you for a year or so. I can't believe that you're like that cos' you've never shown your true colours. Okay, thanks a lot. My fucking mood's all ruined already. I guess, never trust anybody, not a single soul. Cos' i realised that they backstab you one day.
K, guess too many things to rant about. Have debate training tomorrow, and i've speech competition in Aug. Gonna be busy with English, thanks to Mschan. ^^ Haha, okay have to prepare for speech. Kthxbai.