I never thought that being in love was so tough. My heart falls apart everytime i see him with other girls. My eyes will consistently look for him. When i see him with all his girl-friends out there with his friends, it took a really long time for me to recover back my heartbrokenness. This question will always pop up in my head, ''Does he have a girlfriend?'' I wanted to ask you for so long but i just cant type in these five words. No matter how many times i keep encouraging myself, i simply cant text him. When he sees me when i didnt see him, he'll text me and say, ''I saw you just now. :)'', when i'm disappointed that he saw me when i didnt. He did the same thing today, and i was unusually very upset over it. Cos' i never got to see him today! :( K, i've serious things i need to rant about, but its ok. I've received too much pain till the extend that i'm already immune to pain. I get hurt easily, and i always get emo when i feel like it. Sigh, when's hell gonna end in my fantasy?
Hey guyz, eaten dinner already? :) Im sure dear hasn't eaten yet. Haha, so anyway, today stayed back with my dearests Angelina and Lucas. Slacked around playground after eating cup noodles, and talked about a lot of things. Those things that only 3 of us know. :B met a new friend, but forgot his name already. Haha, i just love the two of them max! ~ Went back to school at about 3.25pm like that, and slacked in canteen somemore. Did my math homework, Angelina studied her history, and Lucas did his art. Called kirstin and went back home after that. Well, this is after school stuffs. Shall post about school. :3
Had usual morning assembly, and had muscle cramp. I tell you, pain until like dont know what! :( Sigh... but still did my duty though. I kept laughing down there haha. :P Then went to class: History test! K, almost couldnt finish. Sad or what haha. Then pe, as usual: Floorball. Then recess! It was so fucking awkward. Its way too quiet, and seriously i dont know whats going on. :/ Blurqueen uh. Haha, then had geog test. Never study cos' i forgot. So last minute study in canteen. Shiok. :B Then math, talked about admin stuffs then moved on to cones. Haha, not fun one. :( I dont understand somemore. Haha. :3 After that, science. And byebye, class! :D Angelina waited for me outside class! Nice or what? :D i love her damn much okay! ^^ Then, fill the rest in with the post on top.
Oh my korean drama's already starting,
''When i'm just one step away from being loved by you, i'm at a loss whether to continue to love you. Cos' i realised that i'm too weak to hold you anymore.'' ♠
Sometimes, luck will just give in when we want something badly. But when i wanted someone so badly, my luck just nevers gives in. I've a serious problem at this point of time now, and that is to whether to give up or not to give up on him. Cos' nothing's happening. Should i just move on? Or should i just give up on love? Cos' i'm practically groeing weak everyday after seeing him. I cant seem to hold him as tight as i want to. I seem to feel unconfortable and guilty when I see him. I just... cant imagine life goes on like this. Feeling hurt all the time, feeling pain everytime i see him, feel my heart sink when i see him with other girls.... I can't seem to imagine life going on like this everytime.
#howiwish my heart could just move on. &, will not cry over spilt milk over and over again.
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