Please have a good ending for july. Sincerely, chika.
11:11 - Wish dear would understand how much pain i been through just by loving him.
Omfg, i just realised that i'm broken everyday. I'm no longer myself anymore. I understand if you don't believe me, but if you're my friend, could you please just give me some trust? Do you how much my heart aches when i see him? Do you know how long i cry when i miss him? Do you know how much he meant to me? Do you know how pain i feel everytime he smiles at me? I know, i know. If i love him, my heart shouldn't ache if he smiles at me. I don't know why either, but i love him though. You know, knowing that all those secrets i've been hiding from him, makes me have the temptation to tell him every single secret in detail. I dreamt of him yesterday. Recalling now, i feel kinda upset and hurt. Sigh..... Chika, studies are more important. Don't love again. It just gives you pain. It doesn't get you any further. I'm tired of pain. I'm tired to love. I'm tired to try. I'm tired to hold on. After months of loving him, i'm getting more and more tired. I'm really tired of all these stuffs. How i wish i didn't love anyone from the start. Though its too late to regret, late is better than never. I shall try... Goodbye, dear. :(
Kfuck, i got math test today. Mum told me that i was too careless. Though i did get an A1. Hopefully math will continue with all the A1s all the way. I'm gonna #tweet now. Kthxbai.
11:11 - Wish dear would understand how much pain i been through just by loving him.
Omfg, i just realised that i'm broken everyday. I'm no longer myself anymore. I understand if you don't believe me, but if you're my friend, could you please just give me some trust? Do you how much my heart aches when i see him? Do you know how long i cry when i miss him? Do you know how much he meant to me? Do you know how pain i feel everytime he smiles at me? I know, i know. If i love him, my heart shouldn't ache if he smiles at me. I don't know why either, but i love him though. You know, knowing that all those secrets i've been hiding from him, makes me have the temptation to tell him every single secret in detail. I dreamt of him yesterday. Recalling now, i feel kinda upset and hurt. Sigh..... Chika, studies are more important. Don't love again. It just gives you pain. It doesn't get you any further. I'm tired of pain. I'm tired to love. I'm tired to try. I'm tired to hold on. After months of loving him, i'm getting more and more tired. I'm really tired of all these stuffs. How i wish i didn't love anyone from the start. Though its too late to regret, late is better than never. I shall try... Goodbye, dear. :(