''If only bad things could come to an end, and good things will never end, the world would be absolutely perfect.'' ☮
I wish i had you to be my boy-best friend who gets mistaken as my boyfriend. I wish i had you to be the person who understands me, and will always be my listening ear. I wish i had you to be the one who reaches out to me and hugs me as i bury my head on your chest and cries. I wish i had you to be the one texts me everyday with an 'I love you' in every message. I wish i had you to always side me even when the entire world hates me. I wish i had you to be the one who can always know how i'm feeling even if i don't show it outside. But i know, you'll always be the one who will break my heart over and over again. ☯
I know i'm too young for all these love stuffs, but can i help it? Let me ask you. Have you been in love at the age of 14? Even if there's a tiny bit of feeling for the person you like or love? I don't want to be in love either cos' it'll just distract me from what i want to do. No matter how much you and i want to stay focused, we just can't cos' we're in love. I've been through many painful journeys throughout this year. I've learnt many priceless lessons that we can do in our lives. I've so many scars on my hands as it was constantly being scratched by all the rocks that try to get into my way. I've so many scars on my heart cos' you scrstch them one by onr without yourself knowing that you've been hurting me through your actions. Chika's gonna forget love, forget all that has happened throughout my life. I'm gonna start afresh, and will remind myself never to love again until the mature age. ☀
Sorry to all.Will give a proper update later on. Kthxbai.
Can you imagine the complications that are happening in my life? Can you imagine how hard it is for me to fake a smile everytime I see my dear friends caring about me? Can you imagine how touched I was when everyone kept saying, "Hey, I'm always here for you." Can you imagine how painful it was when some people said, "Do it yourself lah. Your own problem, go solve yourself." behind my back when they say that they're always here for me in front of me? Can you imagine how ddifficult it is for me to trust other people again after they consistantly lie to me over and over? Can you imagine how many reflection journals I have? Can you imagine the sad dreams that I dreamt about when it's about him? You know, if you simply don't, could you just tell me? I know some of you don't want to be my friend anymore, just that you don't want to say it. I hate these lies that some of my 'friends' have made. I'm tired of having to follow people around when they only want company, and when they see their friends, they leave me alone and just walk away. I'm sick and tired of all these already. I'm hanging onto reality as much as possible, but I don't know whether I can cos' this is just not the way I am. I'm no longer behaving like myself anymore. My life is filled with tears, tears and tears. How can I hang on like this? I guess I'm born to be a weakling... ☹
I can't see my journey as clearly as before. In my mind, i've two options. One is to give up on him entirely, and the other is to give up on love entirely Still in the midst of making my decision. Really hope you all could give me suggestions cos' i'm really lost and desperate for the answers. Sigh... I just realised being in love is so painful. I've never ever experienced this pain before. This is my first experience, and i don't really know how to describe how i feel. I somehow feel like... everyone is under the sunlight while i soak in the rain. ☂
I can promise you all that i've been through many difficulties through this one sided love, i've also learnt many things that i can only learn from myself. I also learnt that so many people are there for me.... There're so many things i can list out. I've had enough being an emogirl97 for the past few hours. Let me change my mood for a while.
Hey all. My mum and brother went to the salon to cut my their hair. Wanted to colour my hair to a rather light brown but realised that there's still school this year. Haha. And i realised that i truly need a study companion. Who's with me? Haha, do write on my facebook wall if you've read till here cos' my wall's officially dead. And i'm tired of seeing a dead wall that's only filled of my status changes and photos. Haha. So well... most likely going to settle dinner outside and i'm hungry now. Hmmm, i'll eat my lunch now. Likea finally, but there's nothing to eat!Oh no. :( Haha, its okay. I've money so i'll just buy from coffeeshop. And hey all! I've changed my email. So do ask for my email if you guyz want. Haha. Okay, back to topic. Byeeee, happy chika. ☹
Hmm, i seem to be cheering up a little more. :) And i plan to create a new facebook account. Do write on my current facebook wall if you want me to create or not! I'll see based on the majority. :-) Okay, shall post later on. Kthxbai. ♛
I wish i had you to be my boy-best friend who gets mistaken as my boyfriend. I wish i had you to be the person who understands me, and will always be my listening ear. I wish i had you to be the one who reaches out to me and hugs me as i bury my head on your chest and cries. I wish i had you to be the one texts me everyday with an 'I love you' in every message. I wish i had you to always side me even when the entire world hates me. I wish i had you to be the one who can always know how i'm feeling even if i don't show it outside. But i know, you'll always be the one who will break my heart over and over again. ☯
I know i'm too young for all these love stuffs, but can i help it? Let me ask you. Have you been in love at the age of 14? Even if there's a tiny bit of feeling for the person you like or love? I don't want to be in love either cos' it'll just distract me from what i want to do. No matter how much you and i want to stay focused, we just can't cos' we're in love. I've been through many painful journeys throughout this year. I've learnt many priceless lessons that we can do in our lives. I've so many scars on my hands as it was constantly being scratched by all the rocks that try to get into my way. I've so many scars on my heart cos' you scrstch them one by onr without yourself knowing that you've been hurting me through your actions. Chika's gonna forget love, forget all that has happened throughout my life. I'm gonna start afresh, and will remind myself never to love again until the mature age. ☀
Sorry to all.
Can you imagine the complications that are happening in my life? Can you imagine how hard it is for me to fake a smile everytime I see my dear friends caring about me? Can you imagine how touched I was when everyone kept saying, "Hey, I'm always here for you." Can you imagine how painful it was when some people said, "Do it yourself lah. Your own problem, go solve yourself." behind my back when they say that they're always here for me in front of me? Can you imagine how ddifficult it is for me to trust other people again after they consistantly lie to me over and over? Can you imagine how many reflection journals I have? Can you imagine the sad dreams that I dreamt about when it's about him? You know, if you simply don't, could you just tell me? I know some of you don't want to be my friend anymore, just that you don't want to say it. I hate these lies that some of my 'friends' have made. I'm tired of having to follow people around when they only want company, and when they see their friends, they leave me alone and just walk away. I'm sick and tired of all these already. I'm hanging onto reality as much as possible, but I don't know whether I can cos' this is just not the way I am. I'm no longer behaving like myself anymore. My life is filled with tears, tears and tears. How can I hang on like this? I guess I'm born to be a weakling... ☹
I can't see my journey as clearly as before. In my mind, i've two options. One is to give up on him entirely, and the other is to give up on love entirely Still in the midst of making my decision. Really hope you all could give me suggestions cos' i'm really lost and desperate for the answers. Sigh... I just realised being in love is so painful. I've never ever experienced this pain before. This is my first experience, and i don't really know how to describe how i feel. I somehow feel like... everyone is under the sunlight while i soak in the rain. ☂
I can promise you all that i've been through many difficulties through this one sided love, i've also learnt many things that i can only learn from myself. I also learnt that so many people are there for me.... There're so many things i can list out. I've had enough being an emogirl97 for the past few hours. Let me change my mood for a while.
Hey all. My mum and brother went to the salon to cut my their hair. Wanted to colour my hair to a rather light brown but realised that there's still school this year. Haha. And i realised that i truly need a study companion. Who's with me? Haha, do write on my facebook wall if you've read till here cos' my wall's officially dead. And i'm tired of seeing a dead wall that's only filled of my status changes and photos. Haha. So well... most likely going to settle dinner outside and i'm hungry now. Hmmm, i'll eat my lunch now. Likea finally, but there's nothing to eat!Oh no. :( Haha, its okay. I've money so i'll just buy from coffeeshop. And hey all! I've changed my email. So do ask for my email if you guyz want. Haha. Okay, back to topic. Byeeee, happy chika. ☹
Hmm, i seem to be cheering up a little more. :) And i plan to create a new facebook account. Do write on my current facebook wall if you want me to create or not! I'll see based on the majority. :-) Okay, shall post later on. Kthxbai. ♛