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I'm the type of girl you'll see wishing the same wish everytime I see a shooting star. I do things that I myself think it's right when others think it's wrong. I do what I think is best for myself and others, and pick friends carefully. I've a very difficult mind to break into, and that only the closest friend would understand who I really am. You may think you know me well, but actually you don't. Because I myself don't know myself well, and I believe only God knows who I really am more than anyone else knows. And if you're not aware, I'm a Leehongki && Ft Island fanatic. ♥

July 21, 2011

If reality is shit to you, give a shit to reality. If someone bitches you behind your back, bitch that person in front of her.

You only knew how important she is to you when you lose her. ♠

People always tell me: There'll always be one person who thinks you're perfect, even when they're not perfect for you.'' I almost gave up on love. Cause, all it does is create more tension when i'm near him, and to create stress and last but not least, the killer jealousy. I've always been smiling and laughing in class for dreaming about you, and naturally i did it during motherhell class. I was smiling, and one person was talking at the same time, and someone horrid went to say i like that guy who was talking. Like hello? Still a child or what? I'm really tired at pointing nasi lemaks and engagement fingers at you. So, please dont be childish liao ok. I'm really happy now. He hasn't replied my message till now! Probably he's too tired after cca. Let him rest. Dont get anxious, chika. I recently have been scared about nothing, for no reason at all. Sometimes i find that i'm not myself at all. I've the most number of moodswings in my moodswing history. I cant focus, and i've to always see you face and text you from day till night. I love you, baby. But, i may have to give up love soon cause of my stress. Baby, just tell me whether i should. ❦

Heyz, just came back from sph. I'm sick and tired of all these no-texting-when-tired things. I'm waiting for your reply for over an hour. Should i text you back? I really dont know. I texted manto today, and he told me some top secret stuffs. Was in the bus that time, so was in a damn good mood. My dear went for ncc, and was waiting for him to end his cca. I'm really too sensitive already. Keep thinking about the negative side of things, i'm tired of myself already. Sometimes, i always thinking that i'm a chika undercover. I dont show my hurt heart outside, i always hide the pain and keep it to myself inside.

#confessionone: I almost suicided due to stress.
Dear kept telling me not to stress out cause he knows i'm really stressing out recently, whether over love or studies. I guess in this world, only three people understands me, and knows what i'm feeling even without me telling them. Dear, Adilah and Angelina. They are the ones who are always beside me asking me whether i'm okay. They make me smile even when i dont want to. I know i'm a super crybaby, but you've to understan. I'm not the sort of girl who tells out to everyone how i feel. I either post it here, or hide it inside ky almost-brokened heart. My heart has suffered tons of pain. There're so many scars which cannot be erased, such as my first kiss. It kills me to know that he left me to love another girl.

K, enough of the emo stuffs. Shall change my mood a bit. Hey everyone. I've totally learnt something from the sph thing, and i met amanda leong! I seriously have nothing to say about the happy parts. Too many upsetting parts compared to the happy ones. I'll still maintain my healthy, hyper self though. I'll not get you guys worried. Kthxbai.